Happy 5?

This fifth year anniversary of yours, I was travelling around some of your favourite cities. Places, I’m sure you would have loved to visit, Liverpool Manchester and Glasgow. 


One of the first things I noticed here was how people are callous about rules when it comes to crossing the road and will cross from anywhere on the street. Tour guide also said that they considered this as of right to be able to cross anywhere. You would have absolutely loved that here. 


When it comes to queues though, people are absolutely rigid about it. Even if there is no physical queue at a place, there will always be a mental queue, and people will allow the ones who came first to go ahead. This one might have taken some getting used to for you. But the sucker you are for these colonial idiosyncrasies, you would have followed it. I still remember how you would throw garbage right on the road in India, but search for the trashcan in the US.


I kept myself very busy here, attending a ton of events, like a football match, a famous play and a concert. Things I have hardly got to do since Neo’s arrival with so many tickets having gone waste. But I noticed how boring events can get if it’s not shared with someone. And Geet has done a lot to make common interests over the years. Tennis, blogging, vlogging, stand up and now even activities with Neo. But there still will be things only I’m interested in doing, like the ones I did here, so I figured the best way for me to enjoy these is to assume you’re with me. 


Especially for the football match in Manchester. You would have absolutely loved it. The crowd kept singing the entire second half goading their boys to score a goal. It didn’t happen though, and you would have left the game pretty pissed off.


Anyway, I’m glad I took this time off for myself. I needed it after how busy the last few months have been relocating to Philippines. I got to exercise almost every day, do city tours and learn some history, eat amazing food, read a book and attend all of these events. Some of these activities were literally on hold for the last three years. I crammed a lot into the two weeks and loved every minute of it.


The only thing missing, was you being there with me for real. Anyway, I’m not angry anymore. I just miss that part of me I was with you. But I am no longer angry with you for going, or with me for letting you go. It took its time, but I guess it was one of those things that I had to let go.


Anyway, it’s been five years. Hope you’re happy where you are. I would have been happier if you were here with me, but I’m learning to make the most of what I have, so I hope you are too. 

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